New Colors, New Freedom

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Recently, I was at a coffee shop with my amazing artist friend Payton, and we were discussing ideas for my next EP’s album art. She pulled a set of watercolors out of her bag and began to paint in order to show me some possible colors, and for some reason, I found myself so drawn to what she was doing.

“Watercolors look so fun and relaxing. I kind of want to try it,” I found myself saying, even though I have tried painting with watercolors before, and it never went well.

Payton got very excited, and she drove me to Hobby Lobby that afternoon and bought me my own set of watercolors, a brush, and a little pad of watercolor paper. We then went to another coffee shop (we really like coffee around here, okay?) and painted together, and for some reason, my experience painting this time was very different from every other time I’ve tried to paint in my life - instead of getting all stressed out or perfectionistic, it felt like a release. I was hooked. It was so fun. All I painted that day was a bunch of colorful lines and blobby flowers that didn’t even look good, but I loved it.

The next morning, I was at ANOTHER coffee shop (don’t judge me) with another friend of mine, and I painted the sunflowers that you see in the photo above. It came so naturally. No frustration or perfectionism, no nitpicking, nothing like that. I couldn’t believe it. Since then, I can’t stop painting with my new watercolors, and I’m enjoying the heck out of it.

This is so significant to me because for the longest time, especially this past year, I have been feeling like there is something in me that I’ve been wanting to communicate, but I just couldn’t figure out how. I have so many creative tools at my fingertips, including state-of-the-art music production software and a bunch of musical instruments, but I could never quite hit the nail on the head with music or writing. But as soon as Payton and I sat down and painted together that day, my heart screamed “THIS IS IT.”

To put it simply: I’m finding new freedom with this new form of expression, and I LOVE it.

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