It's already the end of August, and I just can't believe it. When I found out I got into RSW in June, the first day of school in September seemed such a safe distance away. But I blinked, and somehow the summer is almost over. I move in just 2 weeks. My official move date is September 15th.
One thing I did not anticipate was the emotional toll this was going to take. Packing has been physically exhausting of course, but also emotionally exhausting, and I've ended up crying multiple times this week. I like change in general, and I know I'm going to end up loving this change too, but the messy transition process has been painful. Back in May, I remember God telling me that this year was going to get difficult for me but he'll be with me through all of it. I've been reminding myself of that constantly.
Luckily, I'm pretty much done packing, and the move day is getting closer. My back hurts, I'm experiencing a lot of emotions, and I'm EXHAUSTED, but I can finally see the light at the end of this long tunnel.
Despite the emotional crap I've been dealing with, God is still taking good care of me. Get this: my neighbor down the street asked me to move into their house to house-sit while they're away, from today (September 1st) through the 14th. My first instinct was to immediately say no, but I ended up saying yes for a whole bunch of reasons. First and foremost, it gave me a reason to get my packing done before the end of August, which is a huge relief. It also will give me a chance to get used to living on my own a little, cooking for myself, and taking care of the place, while still being right down the street from my parents' house. Lastly, and most importantly, I have house-sat for this neighbor before, and their home is full of books and windows and is surrounded by trees, so it's a perfect place to think and create. The place is just really good for my mental health in general. So because of that, and because my packing is mostly done, I'll really be able to rest and take care of myself before the craziness of the move date. It seems like a gift from God. He knows me and takes care of me so well.
Over the next 2 weeks, I'll be finishing up some stuff at my job, getting the rest of my packing done, planning the logistics of the move date, hanging out with my family/friends and saying goodbye, and being intentional about self-care. I'm hoping to write some songs and make a video or two during my time at my neighbor's house too, but who knows. It's gonna be good.
No matter how hard this gets, I'm already growing a lot, and I'm thankful. I have a feeling my entire experience at RSW is going to be similar: full of difficult growing pains, but I'll be a brand new person by the end of it. I'm choosing to cast off my fears. I'm excited for what God has in store.